my feet may fail

I am not a fan of the saying, “Just put one foot in front of the other”.   I am that girl that needs to physically see where I am putting my foot down as I take the next step.  I need to know what is around the corner.  I do not like surprises.  I try with all my might to prepare myself for the unknown.  Call it controlling, call it type A personality, to me its how I am wired.  I am wired in a way that I have to tell myself on a daily basis that I am not in charge.  I am not in control.  I will not always be prepared for the unknown.

To me, there is no fun in not knowing, there is no thrill in the new and unfamiliar.

Instead there are anxious thoughts that loom during the night keeping me from rest.

I am on a journey to understand that there is a God that knows where my feet will land.  He knows when the next storm is coming and how I will be changed by it, and what I will learn through it.  He is someone that never leaves even though the feelings of loneliness linger.

Even though I can’t always feel it….. I am being led.

I am not leading.

I am being led.

I am being led.

I am being led.

The more I say it the more true it begins to feel.

I am being led by the God who knew me before I was, where I am, and where I am going.

So I close my eyes and with faith, I lift up my foot and trust in His placement of it.

I will call upon your name

Keep my eyes above the rain

When oceans rise

My soul will rest in your embrace

For I am yours, and you are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters

Your sovereign hand be my guide

My feet may fail and fear surrounds

You never fail and you won’t stop now

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders

Take me deeper than my faith could ever wonder

Hillsong United – Oceans

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Comments

  1. Amen and Amen…as one who can often feel the same (and is a few years older than you LOL), I so understand and share that indeed…as you rely and repeat and live, you learn more and more all the pieces you cannot control and how to better surrender to walking in faith when we cannot see where our feet are going. I’ve learned to ask also, “where is it today…in this moment…that you, God, want my feet as I serve and honor you rather than my agenda or plans” and I ask it over and over everyday. It feels “easier” to manage it ourselves so that we can “know” what’s coming and where we are going, yet it is so often the opposite and I find it much “easier” to yield to what He has for my moments…but it sure took me awhile to get there!

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