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I could write about how I have neglected this blog.

I could write about how life was busy and we worked hard the past two months, like really hard.

But really….

I don’t want to focus on that right now.  My desire this year is to seek out the joy that this life has and let it overflow my heart with gratitude.


Life is teaching me that there is joy to be found everywhere – in every broken crack in my shiny not so perfect life – in every major stress that presses on our hearts – all around the chaos that three kids, a puppy, and a hubby in ministry bring.

There is joy.



If I seek it – it is there to remind me that God is good.  His goodness and His joy are laced through every place of my life.  Most days it seems that my eyes are on auto focus, trained to focus on the stress; focus on how hard things are.  It has become my default setting – constantly consumed with how hard things are and constantly talking about how stressful life is right now.

There are so many goals I could have for this year; be a more present mom, a better wife, have a more healthy lifestyle, exercise more.  All of which are good, like really good.


But more importantly, I want to be training my eyes to switch off of auto, and manually start focusing on the joy around me.  Begin to really start each day with gratitude, and remember that no matter what God places in our lives this year or this very day – we will remain joyful in knowing that He will keep carrying us.  Through the pain, through the tears, pointing us towards the immeasurable joy that will flood our hearts and fill us with gratitude.


He has given me so much to be thankful for.  Why let another year go by focused on the stresses of life instead of the joy?

Follow me this year on instagram, @tgowesky and use #focusonjoy, as we start 2015 together with the right focus.

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I wish December would linger like January and February do.  The month where I am supposed to be pausing and reflecting more on the magnitude of God’s perfect plan, I can barely find the time.  Before I can even soak it in, its usually over.  December leaves us and I am met with the unending darkness of winter.

I am trying this year to find out how to make the joy of December cross over into those dark winter months of January and February.  I am trying to figure out how to make that joy that comes with Christmas so real and tangible that it can’t help but soak all the areas of my life for months to come.

I am trying to decide what are those eternal joy giving things or experiences that come this time of year?  What do I need to make sure happens this advent season?  Where do I need to be steering my heart?

Is it even the things I do that help me contain this joy or is it just the simple reminder that there is joy there if I choose to seek it?


Its really all I want this Christmas.  I want joy to continually overflow from my heart so that it pours out daily over my kids.  I want my husband to know that no matter what happens today or any day in the future, I will choose JOY.  I want to see people through eyes that have the JOY of the Lord in them.

I want to seek it.

I want to give it.

I want to live it.


 May the God of hope fill you with all JOY and peace as you trust in him,

so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

Romans 15:13